facing the music

As mothers and fathers, all we want to do is keep our children safe. We are always children to someone, regardless of how old we are. George Floyd’s last word was “Mama”, in hopes that the person who gave him life could save his life. This is heartbreaking on so many levels. Not enough intelligence to determine what’s a…

Mother’s Day

My relationship with my Mother was complicated, filled with heartbreak, disappointments, violations, and Love. She died when I was 27. She died riddled with cancer, abjectly disappointed with life, and ostensibly alone. It didn’t start out that way, but that’s the way it ended. It has taken me years to reconcile my relationship with my…

Moving on or Moving In

There is no redeeming value to suffering. Discomfort yes, but suffering, No. A good deal of suffering comes from indecisiveness. Straddling two sides of a conflict. Vacillating back and forth, looking for signs on which way to go. The signs are always there, it’s that we are either choose to ignore them or are constantly reinterpreting…

Facing the Music

As mothers and fathers, all we want to do is keep our children safe.  We are always children to someone, regardless of how old we are.  George Floyd’s last word was “Mama”, in hopes that the person who gave him life could save his life. This is heartbreaking on so many levels. Our hearts go out to…

There is More

Even though the summer Teals are just weeks away, and even though the LA sky is a Tiffany blue; we are more in the throws of darker reds and muted browns. We are in the shadows of sobriety.This is not a time of summer highs or surging possibilities.It is a disturbing time because it is a…

Emotional Inventory

If love is the ability to cry publicly, laugh uncontrollably, and have your heart broken consistently – then I am filled with love. I am experiencing all three of those phenomena on a daily basis, maybe on a moment by moment basis. It feels like some sort of nervous breakdown or at the very least,…

Aging with Grace

To age requires no effort at all.  To age with grace, well that’s something entirely different.  We all know and have heard how disposable our old people are.  We walk past them, take little notice and have little regard.  Now that I am old, I figured I should have more empathy and understanding of my…