Summer of Masks and Intimacy

Introspection, retrospection, and daily reflection has become the new normal and a sweet journey. Not one filled with regret, but one filled with love and looking back fondly on those I have lost, those that I have let slip away, and wondering where they are today; and those that are here.  All are in my…

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Emotional Inventory

If love is the ability to cry publicly, laugh uncontrollably, and have your heart broken consistently – then I am filled with love. I am experiencing all three of those phenomena on a daily basis, maybe on a moment by moment basis.It feels like some sort of nervous breakdown or at the very least, insane…

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there is more

Even though the summer Teals are just weeks away, and even though the LA sky is a Tiffany blue; we are more in the throws of darker reds and muted browns. We are in the shadows of sobriety. This is not a time of summer highs or surging possibility. It is a disturbing time because it…

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facing the music

As mothers and fathers, all we want to do is keep our children safe. We are always children to someone, regardless of how old we are. George Floyd’s last word was “Mama”, in hopes that the person who gave him life could save his life. This is heartbreaking on so many levels. Not enough intelligence to determine what’s a…

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The One Who Knocks

…Though Cranston was making a good living from commercials, he felt close to creative despair. Early in their marriage, he told Dearden, “I feel I’m stuck on the junior varsity.” So she gave him a gift of private sessions with the self-help guru Breck Costin, who suggested that he focus on process, not outcome. Cranston…

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Mother’s Day

My relationship with my Mother was complicated, filled with heartbreak, disappointments, violations, and Love. She died when I was 27. She died riddled with cancer, abjectly disappointed with life, and ostensibly alone. It didn’t start out that way, but that’s the way it ended. It has taken me years to reconcile my relationship with my…

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Moving on or Moving In

There is no redeeming value to suffering. Discomfort yes, but suffering, No. A good deal of suffering comes from indecisiveness. Straddling two sides of a conflict. Vacillating back and forth, looking for signs on which way to go. The signs are always there, it’s that we are either choose to ignore them or are constantly reinterpreting…

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